alone at home,
spent whole day cleaning my room.
now my room is so clean and neat
but i'm sure that it will be messy again.
while cleaning my room, one of my friend called me.
frankly, i was so happy that he called me. well, we didn't talk on the phone for ages
we had a nice talk, and finally he open out to me
he share his problems with me,and i be his listener
somehow, after talking to him i felt better, (i was quite sad before this)
my mood became better
mood swing again.

this weekend my daddy is back to jb.
i didn't see him for 3 weeks.
miss him so much.
as usual he always come to my room before he go to bed
so yesterday night he came to my room
a very short conversation between me and him

i sat in front of the computer
daddy: your friend not coming over and makan anymore??
me:(must be mummy tell him about it) emmm....
daddy: anything happen recently??
me: nothing...
daddy: if got any problems must tell daddy k. daddy will always be here for you.
me:em...

seriously i was so touch at the moment
there so much i want tell you but i don't know where to start and how to tell you everything.
maybe they do realise something is not right with me
my mummy and daddy have been asking me about him
i don't know what to tell and what to say
maybe one day i will they your the truth
but not now. i'm not ready yet.

tmr is the 20th.
will i be alone again?
definitely will be tough for me tmr.
will it be a better day tmr???