that night was so fun
full of different types of emotions
happy, with friend around, had so much fun with you all around
angry, cos of the call and all, all i want is to see you happy
sad, cos i thought of something which i shouldn't have
i didn't drink much
cos i don't want get drunk
i never know what i will do when i'm drunk
i'm afraid i might do silly thing just like how i did the last time
i afraid that i will cause any trouble to you
the tears at that night make me realise so many things
i miss your voice
i miss you so much
so much i want tell you but i can't
no one exactly know how i feel
no one can understand it
i tired of faking up
i get so tired when i have to put up a show infront of everyone,even to my mum
so they won't worry about me
when i'm alone in my room
i can do whatever i want
stop acting
cos no one is watching me
i really tired of it
why everyone has the choice except me
i don't have any other option
i have to accept the last and only choice
whether i want it or not
i have to accept it
i regret
to choose to stay in jb
i really feel like leaving
all i want is my old life
i want to be myself
but with him around, i just can't find myself back
he told me i don't deserve all this
but that doesn't make me feel any better
i'm lost
what can i do to make myself feel better
that night,
i bath myself with tears
before went to bed
-you will never get to see these tears i cry-
